The Blog of Corey Freeman

Re-Branding My Life

Re-Branding My Life

I started building websites when I was 12, after moving to North Carolina and having trouble making friends. It used to be that I could sit down and build and blog and market for hours. But right now, even writing these last few sentences feels like pulling teeth. The only thing I can work up the energy for is a nap.

My therapist says the problem is I’m focusing too much on the “big picture.” Debt to pay, a business to revive, health goals to meet, what I want to do when I “grow up,” etc. Pile it all together and anyone would be overwhelmed.

Honestly, it often feels as though I’m trying to race against some imaginary clock. If I don’t pay all of my bills right now, and become successful right now, and get fit right now, I’m somehow a failure. I guess in my mind, I’m a sim on super-speed, the days ticking away as I try to figure out how to make a salad using the stove…

I have aspirations. Goals. Things I want to do. I want to be financially stable. I want to be healthier. I want to get into Yoga. I want to build a sustainable, mostly passive website training business. I want to get better at comedy and music. I want to build a stronger relationship with my dog. But first and foremost, I want to like myself.

This blog has mostly been a place to tell “my side of the story.” But now I’m going to embark on a new project. I’m going to document my journey to “rebrand” my life and learn how to be proud of myself, and start to like the person I am.

I don’t really know what that entails. I only kind of know where to start, but I’m hoping I can make some progress and get back to that place where I do what I love, and love what I do.

 

How Having Depression Affects My Business

As I stared into my bank account willing $50 to become $500, I thought to myself, “why am I broke?” It’s not like I don’t know how this happened. But why is it still happening? The painfully obvious answer is that I’m not putting in the work. The first Headway Themes related website I built…Continue Reading

Reflecting on 2014…

Reflecting on 2014…

I’m supposed to blog about my whole year now, right? I don’t really want to. I want to look towards 2015 instead. I mean, I guess I could sum up what happened to me this past year. I got a cat stolen. I got my heart broken. A best friend turned out to be basically…Continue Reading

Do I Regret Becoming a Cyberbully in 2014? Not Really.

Do I Regret Becoming a Cyberbully in 2014? Not Really.

First, cyber bullying is a serious problem that affects many everyday. The laws regarding online harassment are shaky at best, and it doesn’t take much for a psychopath with a keyboard to reduce a victim to an anxious and depression-ridden mess. That being said, there is a ridiculously large dividing line between “cyberbullying” and “a…Continue Reading

All The Way to the Butter End (Thanksgiving, 2014)

First, thank you, Kenny Cook, for the best pun ever. Second, here’s what happened. I was tasked with making stuffing for Friendsgiving, which is like Thanksgiving but with friends instead of family because apparently my family was busy working and would be too busy to hang out with me. I bought two bags of cubed,…Continue Reading

On Ferguson.

No witty titles or funny introductions. I’m not good at politics, or talking about serious social issues, but I think even someone like me can figure this one out… America is shitty to black people on a regular basis. Chuck Wendig is way, way better at talking about this than I am. I really just…Continue Reading

I'm Just Really Into Politics Today (Obama Rant 2014)

I have a theory. I think maybe the GOP doesn’t like Obama because he’s black. (On the days everyone agrees he’s absolutely black and not a different, scarier, obviously UNAMERICAN ethnicity) I mean realistically, he’s hardly the “worst president in history.” He started by┬áleading a team that shot a mass-murderer straight in the face. Then…Continue Reading

Look I Didn't Name the Event, Okay?

A few months ago I had the…pleasure…? of meeting comedic talent Purdy Holsom. Apparently she like, lives near me. It’s not terrifying at all. My life is better because of the song “Ladies Don’t Crap.” Definitely. Anyway we exchanged phone numbers so I could be told about this super cool LGBT centered open mic. I…Continue Reading